It really all comes down to a choice, do I want to live or die. I have been carrying this burden of weight for almost 20 years. The past 5 that burden has almost doubled. Many times in the past year or so, I caught myself, when I was being limited by the weight, thinking, I wish I could just die, and get it all over with. I realize this probably sounds selfish to someone who is not in my situation. I also realize now, and then, that I have plenty to live for, not the least of which is a loving husband.
BUT.. when you are in the 'middle of it', like Sunny and I are, it's hard to see past the fat. Everything seems so difficult, so unattainable and you just loose hope, loose desire, loose the will for anything.
BUT NOW... things are different, things are much better... I HAVE HOPE. I see a brighter future ahead of us. I see strenght and commitment. I see a healthy life, I see success.
In the end.. I guess I have chosen LIFE!
BUT.. when you are in the 'middle of it', like Sunny and I are, it's hard to see past the fat. Everything seems so difficult, so unattainable and you just loose hope, loose desire, loose the will for anything.
BUT NOW... things are different, things are much better... I HAVE HOPE. I see a brighter future ahead of us. I see strenght and commitment. I see a healthy life, I see success.
In the end.. I guess I have chosen LIFE!
My Dear Friend Don I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, but with JOY in my heart for the choice that you have made for YOURSELF! I can feel your commitment in your words,success is yours...you are doing it,YOU ARE DOING IT!!!!!
ReplyDeleteLove you,Galpal
HOPE is an amazing thing Don!!! with hope you & Sunny can conquer all ... love, moe xoxox
ReplyDeleteThere was a time not long ago when I thought my weight would always be an issue...now I see that it is never going to be an issue again.
ReplyDeleteYou brought on tears of joy for me too with your words today...but I refuse to give in and be sad or sullen, thinking of all the years of pain we endured. I'd much rather think of the sweetness of the bright and sunny future right at our feet!