I Have Arrived...

Yesterday, Don mentioned that I have a very stressful time ahead, and while this is true...I am not having trouble coping or feeling depressed to the point of turning to food for comfort.

My father was recently sent to a hospice from the emergency room where my brother and mom had to send him when he was found to be having a serious health issue. His health took a turn for the worse due to dehydration problems which effected his kidney function. And due to his age (90) and the fact that my mom can no longer care for him, it was suggested that he be put there by his doctor. Of course this caused much stress and confusion as to when and how my mom can get to see him, (she can't drive just yet, because she's had surgery on her foot) will he be alone too much of the time...etc. All legitimate concerns, but none too much to handle.

My brother and I simply put our heads together and decided just to be there whenever we can...and sometimes when we can't. It is just easier for me to deal with all of this stress now as opposed to before this journey, and I believe that is due to this new confidence level I've developed. I'm sure it comes with age, but I am also sure that I am thinking clearer, feeling as light as a butterfly most of the time, energetic beyond anything I've ever felt and more in control of my actions and decisions than I have ever been as well.

I haven't turned to foods that will not help me on this journey to make me feel less stressed, because I am finally helping myself instead of hindering myself. I am not about to undo all that I've done because something will taste good or feel good going down. Or overeating to fill a void or to feel some temporary comfort.

It's not what life is for me anymore. The solace I find now, comes from the fact that I am living a better life. I am not afraid to go out anymore, I am not lazy or procrastinating, I am a whole new me...these things are priceless to me. And that which has a price to pay, is not the way I choose to go. I paid long enough!!

Making good choices even in distress, tells me I am here. Not that I am going to be there someday, but that I've actually arrived!!

Thanks Don, for keeping it going and continuing to be an inspiration!