Sunny Girl and I are on a continuing journey down a road which will lead us to ultimate weight-loss success. We invite you to join us. We strive to live healthier lives as we loose the weight which has held us back for so long.

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7/31/09

A short absence ....



Everyone please keep Sunny Girl in your thoughts. She has gone to her mother's house to help tend to her father.

His situation is degrading quickly, and she wants to support as much as she can.

She has no access to the internet there, so will not be posting until she is back home.

UPDATE: Sunny Girl's father passed away Friday Evening, July 31st 2009. Angels welcome him. May he rest in eternal peace.

FROM DON to UNCLE FRANK: 'God Bless You'

Guard Rails...

What is this blog to me..? Why am I here.. doing this huge thing in my life so publicly? This blog gives me the opportunity to really analyze how I feel about this journey. When I am thinking about writing a blog, I think.. 'What has inspired me today', 'What action did I take that was for 'the good' on this journey, 'What do I feel like sharing today'...

For me, it's all about staying focused. I have to constantly be 'in the moment' on this journey, or I know I will loose focus, and run right off the road. This blog is like a 'guard rail' on the highway of my life... It keeps me alive, it keeps me in the lane... It is my 'safety zone'.

This blog has provided me encouragement when I was down, a place to express my most inner thoughts on the process, an avenue for introspection and discovery. My life gets so busy during the day, I don't have the time to 'think' about the process, I just 'do what it takes'.

I can't express how much sharing this site with Sunny has helped me. Further, I can only say a big 'THANK YOU' to all of you who are following us, and who support us.. you are all our 'guard rails'... keeping us on the road!

7/29/09

Mind Body & Spirit!!!


I spoke to Don today and we talked about this journey, and how it's been truly amazing for both of us. Our talks always make me see things in a more positive light and today was no exception!

I've lost more than 40 lbs in 4 months...(the recommended 10 lbs. per month) so I've really nothing to be disappointed about!!!


I am disappointed in my recent stall, yes, but I am so confident that my diligence will pay off in the end. And as Don stated in a recent blog, there will never really be an 'end.' This journey is a lifetime journey. It's not even about losing weight anymore, it's deeper than that for for both of us...

We often talk of life changes and I know I am being somewhat redundant, but I can't stress it enough. It's more about moving forward in mind, body and spirit. The spirit is what moves me to move ahead and not stress about a stall in my weight loss...I'm moving forward in such a positive way that it no longer matters if the weight is coming off or not! I am changing.

Life is different for me now, I'm more self assured, I have a renewed confidence and feel at peace with the new found exuberance I feel for life itself. Yes, I want to lose more, it's just that now I feel so confident that I will, that I can wait it out while continuing to make the right choices.

I know with all the certainty in the world that my life is changing for the best and there is no feeling like this. If I lose 1 or 2 lbs. this week, that will be 1 or 2 lbs. I will never have to see again!! I refuse to be disappointed again. And if I don't lose anything, yes, I'll be disappointed, but I will eventually triumph even more than I already have....now isn't that something to smile about!! =)

And as always, thanks for all the support....you guys and girls, rock!

Busy .. does not mean...

... that I am not committed to the process. I'm sorry for no blogs in the past few days, but .. if you've been reading, you know that I have been crazy-busy at work. I have a facility through Google home page, which does allow me to post through the corporate firewall, but unfortunately, I can not put all the nice touches in.

Progress, fine, no problem, I've been on plan and feeling very good. I had a great salad for lunch both Monday and Tuesday, each including protein, and shakes for breakfast. I'm feeling energized and much 'lighter-in-my-loafers'... which is a GREAT FEELING.

I spoke with Sunny Girl about an hour ago, and she's frustrated (as she well should be) because she seems to have stalled on Atkins. We all need to show her love and support through this period. To work as hard as she has at keeping on track, not cheating, and controlling the quantities she consumes of the stuff we can eat... and then to have minimal weight loss is horrid.

She has the strength of committment to get through it, where others may just throw themselves into the pit, and eat-eat-eat. Bless her for having this strength and focus. You're one strong woman, Sunny Girl! and... we will all be here to see you through this and to continue WITH you on this journey!

7/27/09

Yes, I am a Couch (dare I say it!!) Potato!!!!

Yep, I decided to get serious after a very busy weekend, and rest my ankle.
Seems I am the only one who goes on a serious weight loss journey and is less active than I was before! I layed on the couch all damn day and let me tell you, it's NOT easy!!! However, just walking to the computer was a very painful endeavor, so it's out of necessity that I am now officially a couch potato! I am staying the course on this journey, but feel no weight loss for weeks, even months now and it is very daunting. I know exercise has to play a role here and I am missing the weight loss boat by miles. I will just have to make it up when and IF I ever heal. I need to stop stressing over it and just relax, put my feet up and veg for a while. Of course I will continue to blog and document my daily meals....It's the only thing that keeps me going at this point.

Back to the couch :(


Monday...Monday....

Today is a 'blah' day.. I'm at work, and it's raining! I guess it's better than being at home and having to sit inside because of the rain!!

It's going to be another week of working late. I have 2 dinner functions this week, directly after work. Wednesday evening is my partners father's birthday, so we're getting together for dinner with 18 family members (after work)... and Thursday is a celebratory dinner for a Project Team I am involved with, again, on a week day, after work, with our spouses.

I'm not crazy about this type of stuff during the week... (Phew.. glad I got all that off of my chest)!... It's been a good day plan wise. I had a great lunch and will be going to the gym shortly (it's 5:40pm, I leave work at 6:00pm). Because of all the other activities on Wednesday and Thursday, I'm trying to get my exercise in early this week!

So, on plan, positive attitude, anxious about weigh-in this coming Saturday.. ;>) all is good!

7/25/09

Everything we need...


We have everything inside of us, right now, to accomplish what ever we want to do. All we need to have, is belief in ourselves, strength of purpose, a direction and a motivation. We also need to realize that there will really never be an 'END' to this journey. We will arrive at our ultimate destination, but, nothing in life is static. We must be prepared, and realize, once we get there, the work is not over, it really just begins. We all know this, we've been down the road before... we've maybe made it part way there, then lost focus, maybe lost the belief that we can go on, maybe our motivation diminished, and before we knew it, we were heading back down the road again, but in the wrong direction.

To 'STAY PUT' once we get where we want to be, we must continue to stay focused and do what it takes to prevent us to reverse our journey.

Along the way, sometimes our minds may wander, we may consider straying from the road, but, really, that kind of action serves no purpose at all, except to force us into a disaster - a pile-up on the road. So the best thing for us to do is to keep our strength of purpose, keep our eye on the final destination, do what it takes (rest stops along the way) to revitalize ourselves and keep us energized and heading in the right direction.

I realize this particular blog is full of the 'road metaphors' but they really do apply to this process, for us. This blog is kind of a 'pep-talk' for Sunny and I... and it's what I've been thinking about this morning.

I have been doing fine on the journey, but have found myself more and more, desiring the things I can not (and choose not to) have (especially popcorn.. the last few days). By putting the above into words, it helps me to remember why I am doing what I am doing, and why a bowl of popcorn will only be an 'accident' along the way, and serve no purpose except to undermine all the great things I have already accomplished.

Looking back.. For Sunny and her Dad.

This is the group that Sunny's Father performed with many years ago. As long as I've known him, he has always been a performer at heart. I believe Sunny's dad is the one directing the others in the group.



Here is another one of the Harmonica Gang with Milton in 1965. Sunny's dad is the one in the Blue coat:

7/24/09

I'm A Pepper...

...he's a pepper, wouldn't you like to be a pepper too!!

My dad is the one in the jacket on the right and in the back in this vintage ad for Dr Pepper, strange how diet Dr Pepper is the only soda pop I like.

I went to Philly again today to stay with my dad while mom ran some errands and he's not doing well, but he's comfortable and I guess that's all that really matters right now.

I've been staying on the journey, never will I waver. We all know what 'wavering' will do to a person, don't we?.... :)ooO= I'm finding it very easy to stay on this journey lately and I'm sure one of these days, I will continue to lose more pounds...let's hope.

Tomorrow will be a day of exercise in the pool, as I have to vacuum it and skim, then play with my noodles ;) and just plain old swim. I can't wait.
Enjoy the weekend, everyone!!

7/23/09

Inspired by Don...

Perhaps by being witness to the end of my dad's life, I've been able to see just how precious and beautiful it truly is. Life is fun! Brilliantly shining every single day. Life is anything and everything we want it to be, because I honestly believe it is what we make it.

My mission is to open my eyes to it every day, I use what tools I have to make sure I enjoy it. Let no one steal my joy, let light shine upon my face even in the darkest of times and I am succeeding, because I now have the right tools.

You see, I know what it feels like to wake up and have so much back pain that I couldn't even make it to the bathroom without crying. At 325 pounds, I couldn't walk down the steps without my knees crying out in pain or walk through a store without having to use an inhaler. Life was anything but beautiful to me then. Yes, I have an ankle problem, but I'm taking steps to help that along.

I think I can speak for Don here too......We're also regarding every opportunity to turn down a food, a personal victory, and we face those every day! Every time someone says, 'Just take a bite.' and I decline, I think to myself, 'another victory!!' We don't sit and eat 3 or 4 slices of pizza anymore and call it dinner, when what it really was, was us stuffing down every bad feeling we had. We're dealing with our feelings now, facing them head on and for the most part, finding something positive in the beauty of it all...we can see all the negatives for what they really are....LIFE! Yeah, there are good and bad parts to it, but Life is as beautiful as we make it and we're making it as beautiful as it can be!

We've opened our eyes to the beauty of life, it doesn't get much better than this.

Yesterday's Gone...


As I look forward, and down the road.. I am inspired. So many times in my life I have spent so much time looking back, fretting about the past, letting it effect how I feel, definately letting it effect how I eat... Well, you know what.. Yesterday is GONE... Time to think about tomorrow... No more looking back.

The road ahead looks great. As I progress, I feel better, both physically and mentally. I feel as though I have examined and came to terms with how I got to where I got (fat and unhappy), and it's time to let all those bad feelings go, and get absolutely excited about the future.

I am inspired by my progress, by Sunny's progress, by the acknowledgement I get from the comments our friends have made on this blog, by the support of my friends and collegues, and by my own new-found respect. My respect for myself and for my life.

I'm just damn happy! I know I have developed a strength of purpose that it takes to finish this trip, and at the end... at the end.... well, thinking about how it will be at the end just brings tears of joy to my eyes... Yes..I am excited.

7/22/09

Thank You!!!!!!

Don't have time to write much except to thank all who commented my last blog, I can't even tell you how much it means to have your support, understanding and heartfelt good wishes.

I just received a call that my mom needs me (dad is not doing well) and I have to go to Philly tonight, so thanks again and I will write later.

7/21/09

For the fun of it... lightening it up a bit!

You and I ... we're two of a kind, Sunny. Don't let the stress get to you... If it does, watch this and think of the 'bond' spoken of in the video... we have that, and will forever, because of what we are doing together... I've never been much into drag, but Babycakes, I'll do it for you to pull you up and put you back onto the road! ...(by the way.. I'm the pretty one on the right !)


Learning to Weather the Storm


Things got a little stormy last night for me, I don't understand it really, I just wanted to eat everything in sight. I was a little stressed, and I haven't turned to food in a very long time to ease a stressful situation. Last night was different.

I didn't turn to any high carb foods, with the exception of the heaping tablespoons of peanut butter, but I ate a lot of what I could have....which can be just as bad. I ate cheese (too much of it) and I had 3 sugar free ice pops, and then some blueberries and so on. It just seemed like my stomach was a bottomless pit. I didn't like the feeling at all, I had a hard time controlling it and it made me very nervous to know that this could still happen. I eventually just went to bed, so I wouldn't have the toast I was craving!! *pats self on back*

Anyone can steer a ship in calm seas, it's when there is a storm brewing that you see what people are truly made of, and I had a hard time with that wheel last night. Just scary...it scared me to know that old behaviors can creep back to haunt me, but I am back in control today, with a renewed sense of dedication. Reading Don's blog is always a help for me, he is my ROCK. Also, the realization that stressful situations will always arise and it's very important to know my triggers and be ready for them at all times.

You know, Don touched on something in his blog about not being addicted to food, but being addicted to blogging now and this blog is key. If you notice, I didn't blog yesterday or the day before and that's just not good. I didn't log my meals in and I didn't contact him for the support I obviously needed, also not good.

The next time something like that happens to me, I will be prepared...

1. Get to blogging, not only in stressful situations, but EVERY DAY.
2. Log meals in on our meals page EVERY DAY.
3. Contact Don for support!

Could it have been worse? Absolutely, I could have had that damn toast with the peanut butter, but it was bad enough just knowing that food could still be used as a stress reliever. And here's the kicker, eating did not make me feel better or relieve any stress. It never worked, it doesn't work now and it never will. Take it from me.

7/20/09

Another Busy Week at hand...

Well, I'll be doing short posts for the next few days, and through a tool I use at work, which means I won't be able to post pictures until later in the week. I missed GYM a few times last week so my plan is to make it up this week and go to the gym every day after work (Mon-Wed).

This means very long days, not getting home until 9:00 PM-ish, but that's ok.. I am into it. I KNOW I won't continue to loose at the rate I am unless I KEEP DEDICATED to exercise.

I had a great day today and planned a very big (but on plan) lunch, because I won't have an opportunity to eat a regular dinner.

Thanks for everyones support... I'm livin-la-vita-low-carb.. as another great BLOGGER says.. and I'm lovin it!

BLOG UPDATE: 9:21 PM..
Just got home from the Gym about 20 minutes ago. Got something to drink, and here I am.. updating my BLOG.. I'm not addicted to food anymore... I'm now addicted to Blogging :~) (There are worse things, I suppose!!) Gym was good, I'm tired and will be in bed soon, gotta get up again at 4:15am! Night all!

7/19/09

What is it we're doing here.. Anyway?

We've been on this journey for 4 and a half months. I thought to myself yesterday, as I was riding my motorcycle up to New Hope.. 'My life has changed, I don't feel like I used to feel every time I did a 'DIET'.'

So what is it that we're doing here? Well, really, we've changed our lives. That's why it doesn't feel like a diet... because it isn't. It's a life change that Sunny and I have made. That's why the decisions are so easy, why we know we're not going to 'fall off the wagon'.. that's why it all seems so effortless. Because we've changed, changed our lives and our perspectives forever.

The biggest choice, when you are having a problem with food, with your weight, is what to do. All of us have tried 'THE DIET'... the thing we though would do it for us, and many of us have tried, failed, tried again, failed again.. and experienced that endless 'yo-yo' cycle, getting fatter and fatter with each failed attempt. On my motorcycle, enjoying the ride.. I had a 'LIGHT BULB' moment. All of those times, all of those attempts, the missing element was my perspective.

I looked at a 'DIET' as a temporary method of reaching a goal, BUT... BUT..! To succeed, you have to change your life (lifestyle), and know it's not 'temporary'. If you do that, no matter what 'method' is chosen to reach the end result, YOU WILL have success. Sunny and I will SUCCEED!, we are succeeding now! With every day, every choice, every moment, we get closer and closer to where we want to be.. a new 'life' without the hinderance of unhealthy fat.

What are we doing?.. We're changing our lives!

Wanna see how much.. I did a side-by-side comparison of my pictures taken April 1st and my recent July 15th pictures (CLICK HERE).

7/18/09

Dog Days...


I'm taking a break from the pool to say hello! Doesn't that pooch look happy!!? had a fabulous day in the pool with the kids.

I'm getting ready to grill some boneless pork steaks now and then it's out to the movies with my kids. Tomorrow, I'm hoping my cousin Karen and family will be here for a dip in the pool and a BBQ...praying for the weather to hold up!

Enjoy the weekend, friends!

7/17/09

Crazy.. hazy... dayz....


Sorry about no post the past few days. I'm doing well and on plan, but have missed exercise the past couple of days (I'll be back to the gym tomorrow). I've had some crazy hours at work and have just been too bushed at night to post.

I do not like this humidity we're experiencing. I have noticed it's not effecting me as much as it used to, I'm enduring longer and not getting as tired as quickly. I can really feel the difference the 70 pounds lost has made. I have a long way to go, another 180 pounds or so, but still, I fit in things better, I move around better... and I enjoy life better.

I look forward to going on vacation in Disney in September, I'm hoping to be another 20 or 30 pounds down by then, can you imagine. We've been going to the park for years, and I'm always the one sitting on the bench, saying 'Just go on without me'.. or 'I'll catch up' or 'Just leave me in the hotel, I'll relax'... Well, none of that this year.. I'll enjoy the park, maybe fit into some of the rides (which I'll love)... and experience life again!

Everyone enjoy their weekend!

About Sunny...

I got up today feeling so much lighter, and I decided to get on the scale. I try not to do this a lot, but yes, sometimes when it's not "weigh-in day," I do weigh. I was not surprised to see an amazing loss since Wednesday and I am feeling like not only is the eclipse gone, but the sun is shining again.

For some reason, I can feel the loss before it happens. I will weigh, thinking I've lost weight and it won't show up for a day or two, anyone else ever experience this? I'm wondering if the weight shifts?....or am I so in tune with my body that I can actually feel it before it happens?? In any case, I am feeling fine and doing so well on this journey, so pleased and so proud of my accomplishments thus far!! It will only get better too, imagine that!

I was never a thin person...well, maybe for about 10 minutes back in 1982, when I was 128 pounds (down from my usual 165) and a size 7. At 5'7'', that was thin!! It was a disastrous diet though of 500 calories a day. It included B-12 shots and some other mystery pills....NOT A GOOD IDEA!

I yo-yo-ed for years after that....gained 90 pounds with my first pregnancy and never lost it, in fact, I gained even more after that and then dieted and got pregnant again and so on and so forth until at one point I reached a whopping 325 (about 3 yrs. ago) and had to see a specialist for breathing problems and found out, I had asthma.

I don't suffer from the symptoms of asthma any longer and I feel like I am on top of the world!

Good-bye carbs, hello healthy lifestyle!

7/15/09

To our anxious followers...

Today was weigh-in. Click on the 'scale' picture in the left sidebar of the blog to go to our weigh-in page for today's results! Pictures will be posted tonight (for myself) on the 'Don's Pictures' section (again, see link on left side of the blog). Thanks for the following.. it keeps us engaged, supported and inspired.

Pictures and weight chart have been posted.. Check-em out!